December 10, 2008

Letting Go..

We...share a very strange relationship.
It's odd in many ways...like we both are...
We have always been aware of each other, but never bothered to take some time out and interact..
We always remained indifferent to each other....after an initial period of bliss...
It was really so fine in the beginning...We hit off great back then...
I still remember the first time we met, some five months back...It was nice...
An almost-pleasant feeling...
No, it wasn't exactly love at first sight...not at all, in fact...
Even then we knew that it was just a matter of a few months...after which..
We would never have to see each other again..
Hopefully.
All we had to do was to try and get along as well as we could, possibly, until we parted ways..
For good.
But all didn't go well, and I think to some extent, I am the reason all of it fell apart.
Wellwishers who saw me crumbling under pressure confirmed...to my utter dismay, that:
I never paid attention.. I ignored, I overlooked...
...that I was just so busy living my life that I barely had time for anything else...
....that I saw it coming all the time, and I did nothing to stop it.
But what could I possibly do?
It wasn't like I didn't try!!
I tried everything I could to make up for the time lost..I made every effort to understand....
But beyond a point, I failed to understand....and to be honest...I didn't even want to.....
I mean, like.....how can you understand something so complicated.....so so weird.....so damn incomprehensible....so puzzling!!
And at a point of time, I realized that it wasn't just me..me alone...but we were BOTH practically disgusted with each other...
And it wasn't like I didn't suffer....I suffered...badly....
All that sorrow, disappointment and so many sleepless nights that went by...
Before I lost my peace of mind....I chose to take the best way out..
I decided to call it Quits....
Finally....I Let Go....
If there were drastic consequences to follow all this...so be it...
I could not take it any more...

And so the inevitable finally happened...
It was over.
















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After I got a 'D'...
Me and my 'Advanced Engineering Mathematics Textbook' never saw each other again.

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7 comments:

Anurag said...

:D :D

u have turned ur back to 1 subject, i have turned back to all ..

Bunty said...

i bow down to thee in admiration, thou majesty, da queen of words!

wid every line dat passed, i knew derz da punch in da last para n da challenge wz to figure it out...n i cudnt...

der wz an irresistible desire to scroll down my opera mini at once...but i dint...

n den wen it came down to da punch...wowwww...had to re-read da post to savour da magic orready done...

hats off!!

Bunty said...

LORD jon bon jovi once said of 'knockin on heaven's door' by bob dylan dat it wz a song he wished he had written.

likewise!!

Simi said...

Majesty!!....Queen of Words!! :P :P
The posts aren't really "posted" until they r commented upon by u, Sire!!
Thanx for all da appreciation...means a lottt!!
:)

jasmine said...

Hav no words to describe the climactic beauty of dis post.. tho i was guessin abt sumthing fishy as it turned out to be..
good job!!

anup007 said...

i dont like readin much but ur blogs kept me interested til d very end... havnt read sumthing like dis in a long time...i can only imagine wat kind of a person u wud be. way to go...best of luck...btw why havnt u written lately?

commited to life said...

o shiks...

omg..

such a twist...

you wrote it so amazingly
the pain u potrayed seemed so real..so hurtning..

hats off to you..


p.s was just passing by